ceaselessly

I have to leave

just for a while

though

and all that is

all that we are

will have to stay

in us

I don’t know when

or how or where

our path will meet

again

So we should stay

in you

in me

in every mile

that is between

The void is safe

so be the void

and promise

you will hold me

still

Your veins are mine

they keep me

warm

the way I want

the memory

of you, of me

to beat within

for years on

ashes and dust

ceaselessly

a şti sau a nu fi

Iubito,

Îţi miroase părul a tristeţe,

în ochi îţi sclipeşte un dor,

pe buze îţi tremură o amintire de demult,

iar în inimă-ţi mai bate încă o iubire moartă.

Hello darkness, my old friend

I need to be alone

‘Cause that is how I feel

I want the strength to throw my heart away

Where I won’t hear it anymore

Because right now

It aches so damn much

That I can’t stand it

My soul is heavy once again

And all this pressure on my chest

It’s like a million thousand knives

Oh, how I hate these tears

Trickling down my cheeks,

My neck and straight back to my skin,

My ribs and lungs and veins

And everything that’s broken

Crushed.

Smashed.

Bruised.

Get out, you heart

And take this pain

And carry it away somewhere

Leave me alone in my despair

To fear the darkness that surrounds me

And melt along with it in silence

While all my spirits scream

Wildly inside my body

While in my head there are thoughts

That whisper to my bitter being:

“Get rid of them.

Get rid of you.”

Pieces

"I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way

Then I see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

I've come undone
But you make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in your hand,

Then I see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole!

I tried so hard! So hard!
I tried so hard!

Then I see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole
So you can make me whole"

Filozofie 103

Părăseşte-mă şi vei fi numai a mea, în gânduri, vise, şoapte...sau rămâi cu mine şi fii a tuturor.

Nu-mi lăsa nimic şi voi avea totul...sau lasă-mi tot , să nu mai am nimic din tot ce eşti, din tot ce-nsemni.

Oferă-mi dragoste şi voi fi pustiit...sau respinge-mă-n tăcere, să te iubesc mai mult ca pân-acum.

Dă-mi speranţă şi voi renunţa la tot, la noi, la mine şi la tine...sau agaţă-ne soarta într-un fir de aţă, să pot să lupt şi să mai cred.

Doreşte-mi binele si voi cunoaşte calea spre pieire...sau spune-mi adevăruri crude, să văd doar soare pe cărări.

Urăşte-mă, să te iubesc.

Christmas Lights

Christmas night, another fight
Tears we've cried are flood
Got all kinds of poison in
Of poison in my blood

I took my feet to Oxford street
Trying to right or wrong
Just walk away those windows
But I can't believe she's gone

When your still waiting for the snowfall
Doesn't really feel like Christmas at all

A group of candles on me are flickering
Oh they flicker and they flow
And I am up here holding on to all those chandeleers of hope
And like some drunken in this city
I go singing out of tune
Singing how I always loved you darling
And how I always will

But when your still waiting for the snowfall
Doesn't really feel like Christmas at all
Still waiting for the snow to fall
It doesn't really feel like Christmas at all

Those Christmas Lights
Light up the street
Down where the sea and city meet
May all your troubles soon be gone
Ohh Christmas Lights keep shining on

Those Christmas Lights
Light up the street
Maybe they bring here back to me
Then all my troubles will be gone
Oh Christmas Lights keep shining on

Ohhh Ohhh Ohhh

Oh Christmas Lights
Light up the streets
Light up the fireworks in me
May all your troubles soon be gone
Those Christmas Lights keep shining on

Warmly freezing

And it’s so nice that I smell winter in the air and it’s like summer in my heart.

And every snowflake that I feel trickling upon my cheeks, my eyes, my lips

comes with a thousand butterflies that pinch me slowly from within

and  all they do is tickle a joyful smile across my face.

And every gust of wind that passes right through me reveals for not more than a moment my soul,

my tiny, heavy soul and with it all the love and care you filled it with.

And I remember all that sand that burned my feet and all that sigh

and all the whispers that we would hear from the sea.

And now the snow just cools my skin and gives it scent of cinnamon, baked apples and vanilla,

And all the brown and all the blue turn into white and angel songs and what I feel turns into more.

And trees bend their branches to feel my frozen strands of hair that gently scratch my neck

and give me chills and make me shiver

just like the waves did when the sunrise was a reddish shade of orange and not a cloudy grey like now.

Oh, but I adore this sea of snow almost as much as I adore the other one or you or anything.

And I confuse this wintry realm the way that I confuse myself with humans or with real people,

and snow is harsh and sand is soft and snowmen swim across the slopes,

and lights shine like pearls and pearls shine like eyes you meet in winter nights,

and everything is warmly freezing.